Psalm 13

1 How long wilt thou forget me, O Lord? forever? how long wilt thou hide thy face from me?

2 How long shall I take counsel in my soul, having sorrow in my heart daily? how long shall mine enemy be exalted over me?

3 Consider and hear me, O Lord my God: lighten mine eyes, lest I sleep the sleep of death.

4 Lest mine enemy say, I have prevailed against him; and those that trouble me rejoice when I am moved.

5 But I have trusted in thy mercy; my heart shall rejoice in thy salvation.

6 I will sing unto the Lord, because he hath dealt bountifully with me. (KJV)

Reading this psalm, it reminds me of a time in my live where a “Great Sadness” almost as great as the one in the book “The Shack” came upon my life. As I study David’s life, I can see this happening twice in his life; the first time when he was fleeing and hiding from Saul and the second time fleeing from his own son Absalom. The reason a “Great Sadness” is difficult for us to handle is that we must grasp an understanding of it through God’s eyes. The words of verse two “How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and everyday sorrow in my heart? How long will my enemy triumph over me?” should not be taken lightly. David was probably running and hiding from Saul for about seven years. During this time, he was also separated from his family including Micah his wife who loved him but, who was also the daughter of Saul the very person who was pursuing him. By studying David’s life during this time, we can see how the great hero of Israel became an enemy of Israel. The national hero became a criminal of the state. Yet at the same time we can get a glimpse of how a believer should wait on the Lord and trust God in times of trials.  This was a time of darkness that was cause in his life by others, yet God used it to develop David into a man after God’s own heart.

The second time was when he was fleeing from his own son Absalom.  This event was part of the prophecy that Nathan had declared that would happen to him as a result of his sin against killing Uriah the Hittite found in II Samuel 12:9-12. “Wherefore hast thou despised the commandments of the Lord to do evil in his sight? Thou hast killed Uriah the Hittite with the sword, and has taken his wife to be thy wife, and hast slain him with the sword of the Ammon.  Now therefore the sword shall never depart from thine house; because thou hast despised me, and hast taken the wife of Uriah the Hitte to be thine wife.  Thus, saith the Lord, Behold I will raise up evil against thee out of thine own house and I will take thy wives before thy eyes, and give them upon thy neighbor, and he shall lie with thy wives in the sight of this sun.  And thou didst it secretly: but I will do this thing before all Israel, and before the sun.”  This second event in David’s life was an event that David must have realized that his sin was the reason for this time of darkness in his life.  Even when Absalom was killed and his rebellion against his father was put down, David wept for him.  It is in these times of great sadden in our life that was the result of our own sin that we must trust in the mercy of the Lord to get us peace in our heart.  

So, if you are in a time of “Great Sadness” read this psalm and realize that this is a time that only God can provide the answer. Wrestle with your thoughts even when you cannot see God around you. However, never let your faith and trust in Him lapse. Stay in His Word and trust in His unfailing love. Just as David went through these times and in the process developed a much closer relationship with God, so will you if you search your heart and seek after Him. Having had a “Great Sadness” in my own personal life and realizing how the Lord gave me a wonderful peace about it; I now know that whatever lies ahead of me in the future that God will be there and will deliver once again.

As I reflect on the events of my “Great Sadness” I realized that once I gave it all to the Lord and surrender my desires and wishes to him my life had a new direction. However, this has happened more than once in my life. This is what happen to Joseph in the first crisis that he faced after he was sold as a slave to the Egyptians. He accepted the situation that the Lord had placed him in, and the Lord was with him, and he prospered becoming the master of Potiphar’s household. Everything in his life was on the right track when the second crisis came when Potiphar’s wife accused him of improper behavior. He again accepted the situation that the Lord had placed him in, and the Lord showed his kindness to him and gave him favor with the keeper of the prison. This crisis however leads to his being placed before Pharaoh and interpreting his dreams. This then led to Joseph being made second only to Pharaoh. Joseph could not have planned this as his lifelong pursuit, only God could. So, when the crisis in your life seems like those that David and Joseph face then remember verse five “but I will trust in your unfailing love: my heart rejoices in your salvation. Heed not on your understanding but trust in God and He will cause great things to happen in your life.