How long, O LORD? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me? How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and every day have sorrow in my heart? How long will my enemy triumph over me? Look on me and answer, O LORD my God. Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death; my enemy will say, “I have overcome him,” and my foes will rejoice when I fall. But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. I will sing to the LORD, for he has been good to me. NIV
As I read this psalm it reminds me of a time in my live where a “Great Sadness” almost as great as the one in the book “The Shack” came upon my life. As I study David’s life I can see this happening twice in his life; the first time when he was fleeing and hiding from Saul and the second time fleeing from his own son Absalom. The reason that a ”Great Sadness” is difficult for us to handle is that we must grasp an understanding of it through God’s eyes. The words of verse two “How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and every day sorrow in my heart? How long will my enemy triumph over me?” should not be taken lightly. David was probably running and hiding from Saul for about seven years. During this time he was also separated from his family including Micah his wife who loved him but, who was also the daughter of Saul the very person who was pursuing him. By studying David’s life during this time we can see how the great hero of Israel became an enemy of Israel. The national hero became a criminal of the state. Yet at the same time we can get a glimpse of how a believer should wait on the Lord and trust God in times of trials.
So if you are in a time of “Great Sadness” read this psalm and realize that this is a time that only God can provide the answer. Wrestle with your thoughts even when you cannot see God around you. However, never let your faith and trust in Him lapse. Stay in His Word and trust in His unfailing love. Just as David went through these times and in the process developed a much closer relationship with God, so will you if you search your heart and seek after Him. Having had a “Great Sadness” in my own personal life and realizing how the Lord gave me a wonderful peace about it; I now know that whatever lies ahead of me in the future that God will be there and will deliver once again.
As I reflect back on the events of my “Great Sadness” I realized that once I gave it all to the Lord and surrender my desires and wishes to him my life had a new direction. However, this has happen more than once in my life. This is what happen to Joseph in the first crisis that he faced after he was sold as a slave to the Egyptians. He accepted the situation that the Lord had placed him in and the Lord was with him and he prospered becoming the master of Potiphar’s household. Everything in his life was on the right track when the second crisis came when Potiphar’s wife accused him of improper behavior. He again accepted the situation that the Lord had placed him in and the Lord showed his kindness to him and gave him favor with the keeper of the prison. This crisis however lead to his being placed before Pharaoh and interpreting his dreams. This then lead to Joseph being make second only to Pharaoh. Joseph could not have planned this as his lifelong pursuit, only God could. So when the crisis in your life seem like those that David and Joseph face then remember verse five “but I will trust in your unfailing love: my heart rejoices in your salvation. Heed not on your understanding but trust in God and He will cause great things to happen in your life.